in the first lockdown i called around my team hinting that maybe i had hit the end of the road making music and putting my insides on blast how i have done for the last few years, it felt nice playing with the idea of not creating for the world. i listened to podcasts and spoke to my friends loads on facetime, isolating alone i would pop my girlfriends on loud speaker and potter around my house listening to them natter on about this and that. as our lives got smaller and there was less to talk about i found the search for connection and even the most simple conversations incredibly comforting. when i went out i would find myself listening in on other people talking and imagining what it would be like to hang out with those nattering strangers. i loved catching sound bytes of the world around me and filling in the blanks, my imagination was set alight.
i started recording my friends talking and weaved it through the mixtape like a narrative of my healing. having such wonderful people around me to laugh with. made me feel lucky. if you are lonely or feel isolated or void of encouragement by your immediate circle you can borrow my friends on the mixtape.
i think it’s my response to where the world has been at in recent times
the humm of the background podcast acting as the soundtrack to our lives as we desperately try not to be alone
pablo had so much belief in me
it gave me a lot of confidence to want more for myself as an artist
also to reach out and collaborate with other artists
and also to push myself to channel my pain and anxiety into work that felt more inclusive and dare i say joyful
this is something i have never been able to do before in my art
those of you who have listened to magdalene know haha
i have fallen back in love with music, danger, trying new things, sex, love, raves
caprisongs is my journey back to myself through my amazing collaborators and friends
it felt so daunting knowing that i had to heal in front of the world, i hated the idea of it
but there was a tipping point where i knew i could get this project out and it would make me feel better and it really has.
caprisongs… it’s bronzer in the sink, alco pop on the side, a cherry lolly, apple juice when ur thirsty, friends in the park, your favourite person, that one sentence somebody said to you that changed everything, a club pre game, your bestie who is always late but brings the most to the party, meeting a friend at the airport, just togetherness
it’s my stubborn caprisun ass telling me to work thru my pain by delivering at work, don’t think just go studio and create
my saggi moon being the enigmatic temptress craving the club, to dance and to be social
and my pisce venus hot mess disastrous heart falling in love all over again
but this time with music and with myself
each album i go off and learn a craft
LP1 to produce and vogue
MAGDALENE to pole dance, wushu
CAPRISONGS i learnt to laugh again and remember who i am.